an exploration into my thoughts & mind.

happy birthday @andrewmulhearn !glad i got to see you before you left !:] #friends #csufbuddies #birthday #celebration #southbound #summertime #summer2012 (Taken with Instagram at Whittier)

happy birthday @jvong8389 !hope you had a great time yesterday !#birthday #23 #celebration #LA #dockweilerbeach #bonfire #jacuzzi #kbbq #adventures #friends #family #summertime #summer2012 (Taken with Instagram)

happy birthday to one of my fav. LA boys, best prom date, & good friend johnny !#birthday #23 #memories #friends (Taken with Instagram)

6/26/2012

i didnt make a birthday wish this year, just thankful enough for the people i have in my life. :] <3

happy 7th birthday czarina !photos by: nick barcelona #goddaughter #cute #posy #cooking #birthday #celebration #family #nickbarcelona.com #photography (Taken with Instagram)

happy 7th birthday to my goddaughter czarina !#longbeach #birthday #celebration #hellokitty #cupcakes #miniphotoshoot #filipinofoodcoma #foodbar #summer2012 #family #cousins (Taken with Instagram)

happy birthday to one of my favorite cousins @iamryryan !!<3 love him to death. :] #birthday #23 #family #cousins #memories (Taken with Instagram)

before I blew out my creme brulee cake, I didnt make a wish; all I could honestly think about was how grateful I was for everyone at tht very moment. <3 #20 #birthday #ootn #fashion #blessed #happy #grateful #summertime #friends #family (Taken with Instagram)

celebrating being 20 yrs. young !:] #ootd #forever21 #turquoise #coral #gold #arielnecklace #accessories #celebration #birthday #disneyland #excited (Taken with Instagram at disneyland)

surprise, surprise t-hoe @heavilyperfumed !hope you enjoyed your birthday & graduation celebration !<3 #bigbangin20 #birthday #celebration #dinner #bucadibeppo #italian #dessert #mochilato #sisters #friends #family #goodnight #goodvibes #surprises (Taken with Instagram)

@teenuhcuhlocksin’s 21st birthday !#celebration #craycray #birthday #family #cousins (Taken with Instagram)

happy 52nd birthday dad. thank you for watching over me all these years. i cnt believe its been 20 years since youve been gone, and i cannot wait until the day tht i can finally meet you. finally meet the man whom everyone says was a funny guy & to some-their favorite uncle. ive heard many stories about you, and you even blessed me once 6 years ago when you appeared to me in a dream, and i still remember it. <3 i remember at my debut back in 2010 when i was looking up at the projector as me & nick did the brother-sister dance and seeing this picture of you, the one with you holding your camera, being surrounded by flowers, and i cried. nick & mom were the ones who who came up with tht idea, and i didnt realize how touching it would be til nick & i were dancing & crying. i know you werent physically there during my eighteenth birthday, but you were there in spirit, watching. youve been watching over me, all this time. so thank you. youre actually part of the reason tht i dnt drink, because while you were here you didnt, and because in a way, i kinda wna make you proud. i wna be “daddy’s little girl” to you. <3 dad, im your daughter and always will be. i hope nick, mom, & i can visit you soon. i miss you & love you dad. R.I.P. 

-mariel, your daughter